The One with the Snatch Thief!

It has been a while since I last updated this blog. A lot have happened but somehow I did not manage to make myself to write something in this blog of mine.  Reason? none at all...none what so ever...

Never in my mind that I foresee the tragedy of being 'ragut' at my own apartment! But it did happened! The tragedy happened on the fateful Monday the 21st November 2011 at about 7am in front of my floor's lift. I was going to work at that time, alone. My handbag was snatched from behind.

That day we were to depart to Kelantan after work as Hubby had to attend meetings at Kelantan then Trengganu. So that morning I was carrying a handbag and pulling my luggage, when I was approaching the lift, I was greeted by a malay lad with cap and wearing red t-shirt who is also seem to approach the lift. He greeted me while pushing the lift button to go down. I did greet him but did not actually look at him directly as I was busy zipping my handbag. I just merely recognized his clothing. 

My handbag was securely clasped under my left arm when the lift arrived. I was standing in front of him, so when the lift door opened, I dragged my luggage with my right hand and started to enter the empty lift. That was when he snatched my handbag from behind, I screamed and pulled back my handbag. He managed to get my handbag on second pull as the strap broke. He ran up the stairs, and on impulse I ran after him while screaming for help!!

How surprised was that, me running up the stairs with baju kurung and with my current overweight body!! I remember took up 2 to 3 stairs at one go trying to get to the thief! I stopped on the 6th floor when somebody was asking why, I told him and he continued the catch running barefooted upstairs. I went downstairs to alert the guards, and they also went up...The guy was lost and no where to be found....

The block only have 8 floors and the door to the rooftop was locked. All stairs was blocked and searched and yet we could not find him. Our guess was that he was hiding in one of the apartment on the 7th or 8th floor and the apartment was near to the lift as nobody seen him though most of the tenants are outside of their apartment having heard my sooo loud scream! yeh Just noticed that I can scream very loud!!!! People on the ground can also heard my scream.

I called Hubby and wait for him at the guard house while scanning the people who went out. I was in denial actually, how did it happened? In the building, with people going out to work and with 24hr security guard! I was not even on the street! However, Alhamdulillah, I was not badly hurt except for some bruises and pain on left my shoulder and arm. The next day,beside my shoulder and arm my body was also aching, I guessed it was due to my running up the stairs!!!

I was left with my luggage and car key which fortunately is a habit for me the get the car key ready in my hand every time I was out from my apartment and driving somewhere. Also my house keys are always in my hand after locking my car before walking to the lift. While I was waiting for Hubby at the guard house, the guard did suspect tenants in the apartment at 7th floor. The siblings always act suspicious..Hemm...When Hubby arrived, we changed the house keys first before heading up to the Bukit Puchong Police Station to make a police report. 

The police said it was the first case 'seumpamanya'! Usually snatch theft happen on the streets and public places. Also it was the 1st case such thing happened in my apartment building. No crime was reported in the apartment compound so far.

We departed to Kelantan at about 3pm, I got 2 days MC. That  nite while driving, Hubby got a call from the security and the JMC, informing that a guy with similar descriptions was seen on CCTV entering the lift on the ground floor at my block about 4.00am. They MMSed the picture and I confirmed that it was him. Hubby called the police and they arranged with the security to do some questioning. The guy was seen entering the lift with a guy that the guard and the JMC recognized as one of the tenant on the 7th floor that they suspect previously!

The next day we were told that the police did come for questioning and the guys denied that they knew the suspect and said that he only met him for the first time at 4am at the ground floor waiting for the lift.Just after the police went back, the siblings went down to 'serang' the guards and JMC. They were angry that the guard and JMC accused them of doing the crime. They were asking who is the victim and would like to see me. Of course the JMC did not reveal my identity. The police was just asking if he knew the suspect, as he was seen to enter the lift together. The police and JMC did not accused him of the crime but he was a witness in this case as seen on the CCTV. So why were they so angry!!! hemmmm...!

I did not expect to find back my things but would like to ensure that no other tenants experience similar tragedy. The case stopped there with no further updates...Thanks to Allah that I am okay with no serious injury and finally yesterday I managed and able to go back alone and today going to work as usual. After the tragedy, I would only went back home with Hubby and when he was not home I went to my sibling's house!

All the while from the fateful day until this morning, I did not shed a single tear! But this morning as I was performing DHUHA prayer, I finally cried...sad that this thing happened to me, happy that I am somewhat recovered from the shock and redho..and most importantly 'saya insaf dan bertaubat'. Why?

Lately I am not a good muslimah, it has been a while since I last recited the Quran! A few times late in performing the solat and a lot of many other things. I finally read the Quran on Saturday nite, the following Monday the tragedy happened. I ought to put myself on track again in terms of 'ibadah'. A lot have been missing from my daily routine!

" Mungkin hati ini sudah banyak tompok hitam dek dosa-dosa dan tiada aktiviti-aktiviti yang dilakukan untuk membersih hati ku ini. Aku jadi leka dan terus menerus meninggalkan ibadah-ibadah harian untuk penyucian hati dan jiwa. Mana peginya Aku bila kuliah-kuliah diadakan, apa yang aku buat dimasa lapang yang begitu banyak sekarang ni, kenapa menunggu diakhir waktu untuk bersolat walaupun kelapangan dan tiada kerja menanti...Kenapa tidak dibasahkan lidah ku dengan ayat-ayat suci Al Quran dari merenung dan tekun utk menghabiskan novel yang dibaca....Ya Allah tunjukkan aku ke jalan yang lurus yang diredhoi ole Mu.."

" Ya Allah, Yang Mana Pengampun, ampunilah daku dan rahmatilah daku dengan rahmat Mu yang paling baik"

Let this be a lesson to me! I would like to share a few tips I picked up during the tragedy;

1. Do not enter the lift if you are alone and there are suspicious guys inside.
2. When greeted by somebody you do not know, look them in the eye face to face and greeted back. They know that you had already seen them and hence less likely they would hurt you.
3. Your handbag should be the one with strap that easy enough to broke when being strongly pulled. In my case, the police said luckily my handbag strap broke, if not I would have fell down or being dragged up the stairs! The thief would ensure that they get what they are snatching and hence they would pulled until you let go! When the handbag is securely under your arm, it is actually quite difficult for you to let go especially when being snatched from behind. Hence the injury might be severe..
4. Try your very best to go without 'the big throw everything handbag'.

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The One with the Weekend in Pain

A pair of Pain Aux Raisins....

'Pain' in French doesn not means 'Pain' in english!!.

A sad, sad weekend last week! I was down with pain starting Friday night. Could not sleep, and at last at about 4am, I woke up and took painkillers. I was menstruating by then...I was asleep soon after taking the painkillers...

Hubby woke up for Subuh prayer and after the prayer I noticed that he was dressing up. I was wide awake by then...curious!! He informed me that he had to be in Perak on that day i.e Saturday and also Sunday. Then straight to Kedah for Monday meeting.. I was speechless.. I asked him. 'Naper baru bak bagitau?". He said he only knew on Friday aftenoon, well he actually had the whole nite to let me know but he didn't..

We were supposed to go to Subang to check on the house we were about to rent to a new tenant this October, also to a dear friend's open house on the evening..I was really mad but I did nothing...I remain silent even when he kissed me good bye and said that he was sorry..

As I was not able to sleep that nite, I continued to sleep after he was gone and woke up at about 9am with pain..I was so much in pain the whole day even with the pain killer! The pain was lesser with the painkiller and became more intense as soon as 4 hours were up! So the whole day and Saturday nite, I was on painkillers, non-stop!

I was on bed almost 24 hours! Bilik pun bau minyak panas! Peha, perut ada kesan lebam due to my intense 'urutan' masa sakit tu...I was only up and about on Sunday morning as I took the stronger painkiller at 4am... Went out to wash my car and bought a few ingredients for baking. By 3pm, the pain has started again...

However determined to fight the pain, I continued to do some house chores and also baked 'Pain Au Raisins'. I did took painkillers at about 6pm, the milder one. And Alhamdulillah able to sleep, though quite late that nite, and the pain resurfaced again at about 2pm today. I am in pain while writing this entry and had just took another dose of painkillers preparing for driving home after work as today Hubby is in Kedah...

Though in pain yesterday, I had successfully baked the 'Pain Au Raisins'.. (these are French buns and the name is in French and did not relate to the word pain in English!), finished my washing, drying and folding the clothes, swept and mopped the floor! Yey!!!

My Pain Aux Raisins......Yummy

Welll...That was the story of my weekend....in pain but quite fruitfull!!!

The One with Aidil Fitri 2011

Selamat menyambut Aidil Fitri to all Muslims.....

This year Adil Fitri (Tuesday the 30th of August) was celebrated with fewer siblings, only I and my brother's family were at mum's on the 1st day of Raya. Alhamdulillah 1st day of Syawal went on smoothly and my youngest sister, Sis A arrived home safely that nite. Sis R arrived on 2nd nite of Syawal and Sis M could not made it though had earlier planned to be back home in KB on the 1st day.

As this year I got a new camera, photography session was again in motion, after 2 years without the photography session! he he he. Our theme this year was Brown! All was going well until on Thursday the 3rd raya. Why?..... hemmmm.

I was down with pain as my period came that morning. The pain was quite significant and Arcoxia almost did not help me...! I was down for 2 days and up and about on Saturday!! Alhamdulillah. However, as I was almost pain free, Mak and Sis A were then down with flu! Fuhhh...what a celebration! Sis R had since then went back to KL on Friday.

That evening, Mak decided to go to my brother's house in TM and Sis A to depart from his house. I contacted hubby as he was supposed to come back either on Friday or Saturday. He asked me to stay and wait for him, while Mak and Sis A proceeded to TM. Earlier, I was quite curious and taken back when Mak actually did not even once mentioned Hubby's name and sort off did not count Hubby as one of her son in law...Well there was a story behind it actually!

Though I was curious, I just ignored it and took it easy. However, things became clearer as to why Mak acted that way. She was informed by somebody about the incidents when The Other came to my house looking for Hubby. Mak was furious with Hubby for letting that to happen. The 2 incidents happened years back and she had just found out and assumes it was recent. Furthermore the stories were twisted and far from the truth that I laughed at it.

It was my sister in law; Sis D, who informed me about why Mak was acting that way. Hubby arrived at about 2am and we went to TM that morning for breakfast. When we arrived Mak did ignored Hubby, however Hubby did not noticed anything unusual and followed Mak to the kitchen to Salam!! Sis D, broke the story when we were out to buy groceries for lunch that day. We chatted while Hubby went to bank. I corrected the story and asked Sis D to convey the real story to Mak.

Mak did not come out for lunch and gave reason ' tak lalu makan'. Hemmm.. Never mind..! Now I knew that though I told the story to my trusted persons, one of them could not be trusted and I did not know who. Best not to tell anything from now on. Sometime I just want to confide in my family and share my grief and unlikely incidents with them. I could not trust them anymore...Those things should not be told to Mak as it would make her worries unnecessarily.....

So that was the story of this year's Aidil Fitri...Aidil Fitri never went by without unwanted incidents for me... And to make it worst, The Other kept on calling Hubby, until he was fed up and switched off his phone. She contacted me instead via SMS and also voice call. Hubby did not allow me to answer any of them.

Her 1st sms, "Salam. Ada m*** kt situ?". When I did not answer, she called, and when her call was also not answered, she sms-ed again. "Sy x pernah myakiti awak. Sy cuma sms atau call utk tau pasal dia shj. Nape dia terus off hp itu shj.." huh? I said to Hubby, "Who is she kidding?" Tak pernah menyakiti?. I cannot help laughing after reading the sms and so is Hubby...I asked Hubby to contact her and put me out of the misery of being hassled by her. He did and I too, then switched off the phone.. Tak kuasa!!!

All in all, Alhamdulillah I was still in 1 piece and life has to go on... I am living with pain again! Allah helps me and cherishes me! Insha’Allah

"Tiada seorang muslim yang (sabar) ditimpa oleh keletihan, kesakitan, benda yang dibenci, kedukacitaan hati, kesedihan hatta duri yang menyucuk kecuali melalui Allah menghilangkan dosa2nya."(hadith riwayat al-Bukhari).

I keep on telling myself, be patient, cherish the pain as my sins will melt way with my submission to Allah's gift of pain to me...Aku redho ya Allah...Amiiin.

The One with The Outrageous Outstation

Why outrageous? We are in 10 final days for this year's Ramadhan and Hubby had to go to Sabah & Sarawak,  working! He would only come back on Wednesday the 24th August, and I am going back to Kelantan on Thursday morning the 25th August..Look like we have only 1 night to perform Qiam together, the nite of the 25th Ramadhan...InsyaAllah

This year's Ramadhan, Alhamdullilah we managed to spent time together quite often and we are so good and happy most of the days we spent together. This morning we chatted, and I am sooo thankful to Allah that he managed to perform Qiam last nite and he is missing me!!

The chats - sweet... Ya Allah semuga kebahagian kami berkekalan..

I am praying hard so that we can perform Qiam together on the 25th of Ramadhan..and hopefully that can bring us closer together and most importantly bring us closer to Allah Al-Mighty!!

Sabda Rasulullah SAW: “Sehampir-hampir masa seseorang hamba Allah kepada Tuhannya ialah pada waktu tengah malam yang terakhir, maka kalau kamu berminat menjadi seorang dari orang-orang yang mengingati Allah pada saat yang tersebut, maka hendaklah kamu lakukannya.” (At-Tirmizi)

The One with Nuzul Quran 1433

Alhamdulillah, another year went by and we are still together. Every Nuzul Quran of the year, we choose to celebrate our anniversary. Reason? Biarlah Rahsia! My prayer to Allah the great Giver:

Ya Allah Kau yang Maha Agung,

Penuh dengan kasih sayang melimpah ruah, dan

Pemberi perlindungan dan pertolongan,

Kau berikan kesudahan yang baik utk aku dan suamiku.

Pimpinlah kami dengan kalimah syahadahMu di saat akhir kami,

Dakaplah kami dalam kelembutan rahmatMu, dan

Kau berikan yang terbaik bagi kami.

 Ya Allah Ya Rahman

Terimalah kami dalam keredhaanMu, dan

Berikan kami maghfirahMU,

Bagi setiap dosa-dosa dari perbuatan,

Tuturkata atau detik hati.  

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim Ya Wahab,

Berikan kami kekuatan dalam mengharungi kemelut hidup kami,

Ringankan bebanan derita kami dengan kifarah,

Bagi setiap dosa-dosaku yang lampau. 

Ya Allah Ya Baari’ sembuhkanlah penyakit kami ini, dan Anugerahkan kesihatan yg sempurna utkku dan suami.

 Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Wahab,

Anugerahkan dan permudahkan aku dan suami

Untuk mendapat zuriat yg sempurna, yang

Dirahmati, diberkati dan dipelihara oleh MU.

Ya Allah, Kau mudahkanlah yang sukar bagi kami,

Kau lenyapkan kedukaan hati kami dan sayu hati kami.

Ya Allah, Ya Ghaffur,

Ampunkanlah dos-dosa kami,

Berikan keimanan dan kesihatan yang sempurna,

Hati yang khusyu’,  dan

Lidah yang sentiasa berzikir nama-Mu Ya Allah,

Rezeki yang melimpah, halal lagi suci. 

 Ya Allah, lapangkanlah dada kami,

Tenangkanlah kebimbangan kami dan

Berikanlah kesabaran pada kami,

Kurniakanlah kami kebaikan di dunia ini, dan

Kemenangan dengan mendapat ni’mat syurga dan

Keselamatan dari api neraka,

Serta peliharalah kami dari azab siksa kubur dan neraka. 

Amin Ya Rabbil Alamin.

The One with The Iftar 2011/1433

Alhamdulillah, we managed to hold the Iftar for my siblings and relatives on last Saturday. At first I never thought it will happened with Hubby beside me! Thank you Allah, what an achievement! Before that on Friday we went back to Temerloh to have Iftar with his side of the family, the 2nd time this Ramadhan. We went back the 1st day of Ramadhan before this..also something new and nice.

We headed back home on Saturday morning and headed direct to wet market - Pak Lang pasar segar. Hubby finally decided to have tenggiri asam pedas and oxtail sup. Both not my cup of tea! We shopped together, and it was a blessed to me as we seldom managed to do that... It was insignificant to others, but sooooo significant to me...Syukur Ya Allah.

Though the menu was not my cup of tea, I managed to cook them well! It was my first time cooking Oxtail sup, it was a blast!!! Also the asam pedas, cooked it from scratch, usually I would used the pre-prepared frozen asam pedas gravy..I was also a hit!! He he he..I am so proud of myself! Oh yes, I was quite surprise when Hubby stayed that nite when he was supposed to go back to his other house...Again syukur Ya Allah..

As for the pain, almost everyday from the ist day of my period, I had to take the painkillers..I have started to fast again yesterday after 8 days of fasting free! And I didn't take any painkillers this morning during sahur and I hope today the pain would not be so significant and the better is not to surface at all..InsyaAllah with HIS blessing.

All in all I was a blessed and blissful week. Thank you Allah.

The One with Another Sign

Today, the presentation finished early, so we were allowed to go back 15 minutes before the office hours ended. Alhamdulillah, I managed to reached home early and able to bake 2 batches of Raya cookies.

After finishing my baking project, I concentrate on watching a Malay drama series "Suria di Cordoba". Never seen this drama series before... Just as I sat down on my Gintel Massage chair and make myself comfortable, the drama was showing a girl reading her mum's diary...Among other things her mother was narating about her being a miracle baby as doctors had confirmed that her mom was infertile and could not become pregnant. However, Allah knows best and with patient, tawakkal and belief in the concept of 'Kun Fa Ya Kun", her mother become pregnant and showing that "perancangan Allah mengatasi ramalan sains"....

Again, those script brought me back to the concept of never stop praying, miracle do happens if Allah permits and if it is the best for you..So keep on praying.....and Allah listens to HIS servant!!!

I started my period on Saturday the 7th August at about 9am. So as of today I have missed 4 days of fasting. I was in severe pain on Sunday morning, and the best thing was I actually did not feel sad or hopeless! I took my pain medication and tried everything possible to reduce the pain, I was saying to myself, 'bila nak stop sakit ni...' with no feeling of sadness! Alhamdulillah....

So, Mr Pain, you come I fight! No worries!!!!!

The One with the Khazanah dari Syurga

I have been in pain again and now painkillers have become my buddy again. No worries, I have learnt to accept the fate! Last week have been pretty fruitful week I guess! Alhamdulillah..

 

First of all, I have managed to consult Dr R, a homeopathy doctor who is also my colleague! Never knew that she is a homeopathy doctor and I have known her for almost 17 years!!! Been postponing the consultation for months and managed to do so during our BP 2012 Challenge! Fortunately we were sitting side by side..I have started the medication on last Thursday....

The pain of the comming period started on Thursday and follow thru Friday! On Friday, thanks to Allah, I have managed to participate in Solat Tasbih in the office. I was quite late, and the hall was already full of muslimah and I had to wait outside. When the Zohor prayer was about to start I tried to squeez in and Alhamdulillah managed to secure a small place, enough for sujud however I could not Rukuk properly!!

Oh yes, on Thursday nite, while I was busy washing the dishes, I noticed some foul smell, ignoring it I continued washing the dishes and suddenly I noticed that the area near the stove was flooded! Oh my! this never happens before. Contacted hubby and he said that we needed to call a plumber! Since it was already 11pm, I decided to find a plumber the next day..

I contacted the plumber reffered by my friend and the local maintenance and set an appointment at 3pm on Friday. That day the pain started to be more significant!!! I reached home at about 3.15pm and Ah Sang the plumber was already waiting for me! He fixed the clogged drain just by using a mop!! Since he was already there, I asked him to fixed the flush, the leaking pipe and the fallen out sink! In 3 hours all were fixed and it has been months since those problems exist! Fruitfull week indeed!!

The whole day on Friday, I prayed and prayed that the period would only came after Iftar..In pain most of the time that day..and Alhamdulillah my fast lasted until Iftar. Tired and in pain I slept right after performing the magrib prayer and only to wake up at about 3.30am and still free of period!! I quickly rose to perform my Isyak prayer. And continued with terawikh, tahajjud and solat hajat..

I did the 12 rakaat solat Hajat and my prayers were for the Al Mighty to show me the way to tackle my pain and my infertility problem..I cried and cried..huh! What is new? Hemm...Deep inside my heart I have stopped hoping that I would become a mother someday! I really wished that the Al Mighty would give me strength and patient to deal with all HIS gifts to me!

After subuh prayer, I switched on the TV and turned to Astro Oasis and started with my baking project..While I was busy measuring the ingredients I heard the Ustazah was saying...

"Jangan berhenti berharap dgn Rahmat Allah, terus berdoa utk mendapatkan zuriat. Percayalah jika dikurniakan zuriat itu adalah anugerahNya, jika tidak juga adalah Anugerah dariNya. Hanya Dia yg tahu apa yg terbaik buat kita...Jangan berhenti berdoa dan berharap...."....

I had stopped doing anything at that time and stared at the TV... Allah Al Mighty! He listens to me... The tears started to fell down my cheeks!

I quickly recite the Istighfar and said to myself continue 'berharap' and 'berdoa'...Allah know the best! The show of the segment called "Khazanah dari Syurga". Ustazah Asni was teaching doa for childless couples from the Al Quran. The ayah is Surah Al Imran - the 89th verse...

Maksudnya:

Ketika itu Nabi Zakariya berdo'a kepada TuhanNya, katanya: "Wahai Tuhanku Kurnialah kepadaku dari sisiMu keturunan yang baik; sesungguhnya Engkau sentiasa Mendengar (menerima) do'a permohonan."

Keterangan ayat:

Al-Imam al-Samarqandi meriwayatkan bahawa Nabi Zakaria pernah merasakan baginda tidak akan mendapat zuriat sehinggalah baginda melihat anugerah Allah memberikan Mariam a.s. buah-buahan pada bukan musimnya.

Maka baginda meyakini bahawa Allah berkuasa mengurniakan anak kepadanya. Tambahan pula baginda memegang amanah menjaga kunci rumah Qurban yang diwarisi turun-temurun.

She also reminded us to always zikr with Allah's name; especiallly Ya Warith, Ya Wahab.....And for me, I am blessed, He always listens to me...Syukur Ya Alllah!

The One with Talian ALLAH.....sentiasa terbuka

Again, it has been a long time since the blog is updated....Let us start with some tazkirah that I got from email.............

Pernahkah Anda bayangkan bila pada saat kita berdoa, kita mendengar ini:

Terima kasih, Anda telah menghubungi Baitullah".

Tekan 1 untuk 'meminta'.
Tekan 2 untuk 'mengucap syukur'.
Tekan 3 untuk 'mengeluh'.
Tekan 4 untuk 'permintaan lainnya'."

Atau....

Bagaimana jika Malaikat memohon maaf seperti ini:

"Saat ini semua malaikat sedang membantu pelanggan lain. Tetaplah sabar menunggu. Panggilan Anda akan dijawab berdasarkan urutannya."

Atau, pernahkah Anda bayangkan bila pada saat berdoa, Anda mendapat respons seperti ini:

"Jika Anda ingin berbicara dengan Malaikat,

Tekan 1. Dengan Malaikat Mikail,
Tekan 2. Dengan malaikat lainnya,
Tekan 3. Jika Anda ingin mendengar sari tilawah saat Anda menunggu,
Tekan 4. "Untuk jawapan pertanyaan tentang hakikat syurga & neraka,silahkan tu nggu sampai Anda tiba di sini!!"

Atau mungkin juga Anda mendengar ini :
Sistem kami menunjukkan bahawa Anda telah satu kali menelefon hari ini.Silakan cuba lagi esok."
atau...
Pejabat ini ditutup pada hujung minggu. Sila hubungi semula pada hari Isnin selepas pukul 9 pagi."

Alhamdulillah. .. Allah SWT mengasihi kita, Anda dapat menelefon-Nya setiap saat!!!

Anda hanya perlu untuk memanggilnya bila-bila saja dan Dia mendengar anda..Kerana bila memanggil Allah,tidak akan pern ah mendapat talian sibuk. Allah menerima setiap panggilan dan mengetahui siapa pemanggilnya secara pribadi.

Ketika Anda memanggil-Nya, sila gunakan nombor utama ini: 24434
2 : solat Subuh
4 : solat Zuhur
4 : solat Asar
3 : solat Maghrib
4 : solat Isya
Atau untuk lebih sempurna dan lebih banyak afdhalnya, gunakan nombor ini : 28443483
2 : solat Subuh
8 : solat Dhuha
4 : solat Zuhur
4 : solat Asar
3 : solat Maghrib
4 : solat Isya
8 : Solat Tahajjud atau lainnya
3 : Solat Witir

Maklumat terperinci terdapat di Buku Telefon berjudul "Al Qur'anul Karim & Hadis Rasul". Talian terus , tanpa Operator tanpa Perantara, tanpa bil.. Nombor 24434 dan 28443483 ini memiliki jumlah talian hunting yang tak terhingga dan dibuka 24 jam sehari 7 hari seminggu 365 hari setahun!!!
Sabda Rasulullah S.A.W : "Barang siapa hafal tujuh kalimat, ia terpandang mulia di sisi Allah dan Malaikat serta diampuni dosa- dosanya walau sebanyak buih laut"

7 Kalimah ALLAH:

1. Mengucap "Bismillah" pada tiap-tiap hendak melakukan sesuatu.
2. Mengucap "Alhamdulillah" pada tiap-tiap selesai melakukan sesuatu.
3. Mengucap "Astaghfirullah" jika lidah terselip perkataan yang tidak patut.
4.. Mengucap "Insya-Allah" jika merencanakan berbuat sesuatu di hari esok.
5. Mengucap "La haula wala kuwwata illa billah" jika menghadapi sesuatu tak disukai dan tak diingini.
6. Mengucap "inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun" jika menghadapi dan menerima musibah.
7. Mengucap "La ilaha illa Allah Muhammad Rasulullah" sepanjang siang dan malam sehingga tak terpisah dari lidahnya.

Dari tafsir Hanafi, mudah-mudahan ingat, walau lambat-lambat. ..mudah- mudahan selalu, walau sambil lalu... mudah-mudahan jadi bisa, karena sudah biasa.

The One with the Pain...

It has been 5 months after my last fertility treatment, and now I think the pain is starting again. The pain has been emerging bit by bit, now the after period pain i.e during my fertile days pain has gradually surface! However Alhamdulillah the pain can be control just by taking Panadol Menstrual (PM). Just bought 1 box of PM. Am having pain actually while writing this entry. This morning I had just taken PM for the pain, so tonite, I will try to avoid taking them again.... InsyaAllah.

Just last week, I had lunch with my close friend KC. Among other things she mentioned about her friend that can do islamic healing. I seeked her help to ask her friend to try to help me. Well, the result was actually no surprised to me; 'gangguan sihir yg kuat dlm rahim dan sihir ringan dikaki kanan, gangguan jin dikaki dan tangan'. Even Mak Jah had actually said the same thing, ada gangguan!

Whatever it is, I just hope that all the gangguan will go away...I was presribed to performed some zikr and also drink and shower with the water that is recited with Al Fatihah (1x) and Ayat Kursi (7x). Also to do samak i.e shower with air tanah 1st then follow by air mutlak 6x. I have done and doing all the prescriptions.

That was all about physical pain, emotional pain? Well, emotional pain actualy bring some degree of physical pain to me i.e emotional pain = stress = increase physical pain!

Last Saturday, Hubby had Badminton Tournemant. He did complained that he was not well as he felt pain in the back and his knee. He continued playing anyway until the final, he lost in the final, he was dragging his knee in the game. Back from the game, he started to have fever!

He was to go back to his 1st house that day, but seeing his condition I advised him to just stay at our home, take Panadol, sleep and go back the next day. He refused and said that, it would be difficult not to go back!!! So he took Panadol Extend and drove home in pain and fever.

On Monday, he texted me saying that he was on MC. But about an hour later, he texted me again informing me that he was at emergency ward! He was warded the very same day. And me? I could not see or visit him! My husband! Only Allah knew my feeling during the days that he was sick...I could hardly reached him! I could only pray from far.....

Alhamdulillah he was back to work on Wednesday, those 3 days were emotionally disturbed days for me..What happended if he were seriously ill? How would I see or reach him if situation is still like now.. Nauzubillah, May Allah help me and jauhkan dari segalanya!!!

When he was warded I again asked KC to ask her friend to try to heal Hubby. The result was a surprise to me; 'gangguan sihir, jin dan saka'. The sihir part, previously was diagnosed by Hj Lokman - the syifa healer (the one in the Penawar Syifa at Astro Oasis), but the saka part is new to us. When I told Hubby, Alhamdulillah he wants to perfome all the zikr prescribed to him...

Not all muslims believes in this type of healing and the cause or the sickness. However for me, these things do happen and no harm trying as only Allah knows the sickness and the cure. Allah said in the Quran;

"Dan Kami turunkan drpd Al Quran apa yg menjadi penyembuh(ubat) dan rahmat bagi orang2 yg beriman, dan tiadalah Al Quran itu menambahkan kpd org2 yg zalim selain kerugian." [Al-Israa':82]

So, Al Quran adalah peyembuh dan kita kena yakin dengan Allah. Insya Allah.

Ya Allah aku mohon supaya disegarkan kesembuhan daripadaMu atas penyakit yang ku deritai atau berilah aku kesabaran di atas derita cubaan Mu atau keluar dari dunia ini dengan rahmatMu ya Allah, Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih.

The One with the Blood Test...

This posting was long overdue, it should be continuation from the post The much-awaited-doctor-appointment. Lets start the cerita ceriti about my 2nd IVF attempt.

Well actually when Prof said that I was in my 4th week, I was quite surprised since according to the calculation I made from the ivf calculator from this site : IVF Calculator I should be in my 6th week. That was actually the 1st sign saying that I am not pregnant!

The next day, Hubby called the hospital and when he called me, he said, 'Sabar byk2 yer M**, the blood test was negative...'. Surprisingly I did not cry, I just sigh and said, 'Ok. I'll be ok, nak buat macamana dah tak der rezeki...'. That was it..another failed attempt.

 I could not remember when was exactly I actually cried and cried, but I did, not immediately but might be 2 or 3 days after that. It was during Ramadhan then..Prof did tell my husband that I had just to wait for the sac to 'keluar'! In other words wait for my period...

I have 3 more embryos in the freezer, the 2nd attempt should be my last, however since there are more embryos I will proceed for my last attempt. When? tengok budget dulu, but it should be in the 2nd quater this year, 2011.

Meanwhile I proceed to seek treatment from Mak Jah. She is quite confident that insyaAllah, ada rezeki nanti, because my eggs are okay and good. So try jerlah, I went to see her weekly, Mak Jah check perut and give jamu according to my condition.

In conclusion I think my big problem is my uterus, it is not healthy and that was why the baby cannot attached to my uterus. Surface of my uterus is not smooth according to the scope done by Prof before my 2nd attempt. So, my plan is to proceed treatment with Mak Jah and if does not materialised by Appril, I will proceed with the last attempt in May or Jun. I hope with Mak Jah's help the condition of my uterus will improve, InsyaAllah.

Till my next treatment.....

The One with the SMS

Today 3rd Feb, the day after my birthday and 1st day of chinese new year. I stayed at home spring cleaning the kitchen! And in the evening went out to fetch my sister and her daughter. She will be spending her CNY break at my petite villa. Her husband and 2 other kids went back to Ulu Tembeling, his hometown.

The pain has really come back, I guess. Morning I was fine, but the pain started towards the evening and night. Just popped put Panadol Menstrual again..Still in pain while I was writing this entry...Get to get use to the pain again...Alhamdulillah Panadol Menstrual currently is enough to control the pain...Will I be going back to Arcoxia 120mg and injection again to control the pain? Only time will tell and only He knows...

While I was busy cleaning the kitchen, SMS came in. Guess what? It was from Hubby. The SMS said;

" Mintak maaf banyak2..dari hari semlm bergaduh..nak pulak dia tahu semlm birthday m**. Masalahnya dia orang semua cuti seminggu,itulah yang merenget nak balik kmpg..suruh balik dulu tak nak pulak...dugaan betul. Kalau ikut tak sabar dah mcm2 boleh jadi..abg mintak maaf banyak..memang semlm nk balik puc dan hari ni baru balik kmpg. Selamat hari lahir..semoga umur yang ada diberkatiNya dan dimurahkan rezeki dan diberikan kesihatan yang baik untuk beribadah kepadaNya."

I didn't reply the SMS..just let it be...and my doa;

'Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim, jika benar aku dianiayai, kau tunjukkanlah kebenaran dan berilah petunjuk dan hidayah kepada mereka yang menganiayai. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Adil, maka anugerahkanllah ganjaran yg setimpal bagi mereka jika mereka yg menganiyai dan aku jika aku yang dianiyai mereka.....Amin Ya Rabbil Alamin"

Mission acomplished today to clean up the kitchen and do the laundry. Tomorrow to continue a little bit more in the kitchen and also to spring cleaning the ironing room i.e the smallest room in the house that I used as ironing and almost like a store room! My mission for CNY break =  Spring cleaning the house!

Till the next entry....

The One with the Birthdate = 02-02-2011

My 42nd birthday and Hubby was not around, and no wish from him. Sad? I am, but I am not going to let it ruin my day and my holidays... On leave due to Chinese New Year. As expected, bila cuti sama ngan cuti sekolah, sangat susah utk mengharap dia akan balik. Cuti kerja, giliran pun cuti!!! Panjang cuti, lamalah tak jumpa dia..

I did ask him on Tuesday the 1st Feb, balik tak esok? Dia kata tak tahu lagi..I asked him to baliklah sebab nanti dah Chinese New Year sampai weekend dah sure dia tak boleh balik and it was my turn anyway.Tengoklah katanya...I was hoping he would consider since it was my birhday....Tapi harapan tinggal harapan...

Hari ni pulak sakit dah datang, actually sejak semalam lagi. Buat tak tahu dan buat sibuk jer..Pagi I went shopping for groceries and also bought me a new pair of sandals and a watch! My nephews and nieces from Trengganu called wishing me happy birthday..The whole shopping time, I was in pain but manage to control the pain.

Balik rumah, try to still endure the pain but finnaly gave in and took Panadol Menstrual...Lama jugak baru okay but still not painless but bearable. Syukur tak payah top up the pain killers with arcoxia!! While I am writing this, the pain is creeping back, dah lebih 4 jam dah..Will try to sleep instead without taking another dose of Panadol..

If I would took what happend today seriously, I mean with the pain, waiting and expecting Hubby to come home, expecting him to wish me or plan to surprise me! But nothing from him...I would have crying myself to sleep. But I choose not too..

My sms conversations with him today;

- At 10.44 am I send him sms 'out to ioi', but no reply..

- At 5.28pm I send another message 'Salam...balik ker tak hari ni?', again no reply..

- At 7.27pm I send another message ' Balik ker tak?'

- At 8.09pm, got a reply from him ' Kat kampung..', I was soo kecik hati!!! then I replied

- 'Sampai hati, kerjalah hari ni, esok boleh balik kg, cuti lama..memang tak consider perasaan m**** langsung...

- no reply from him...I expect him to go to work today so that he can come home!!!

- At 12.37am I send another sms ' Hemm...no wish from suami sendiri..tak per...'

So that was how my birthday went by this year....

Syukur ya Allah kenara aku masih bernyawa dan mampu untuk meneruskan kehidupan dibumimu ini...Ampunkan daku dan rahmatilah aku dgn rahmat mu yg paling baik... Amiin..