Friday, August 14, 2009

Pulang kepada Pencipta....


Ustaz Asri...pergi takkan kembali lagi...
Ustaz Asri...pergi takkan kembali lagi..."




Yasmin Ahmad....dalam kenangan...
Yasmin Ahmad....dalam kenangan...
First, it was Yasmin Ahmad, then nephew of a friend, and today Ustaz Asri from Rabbani. All have been called unexpectedly.Yasmin while doing her work at 50, the nephew while sleeping at 20 and Ustaz Asri while presenting at 40.

See the pattern? The Creator are now calling his servant back to him without any warning or what so ever. Kita yang masih hidup ni, bersedia kah? jika dipanggil pulang  esok, atau lusa atau bila-bila saat sahaja... Are we prepared? Apa bekalan untuk dibawa berjumpa yang Mencipta kita?
Semuga roh mereka dicucuri Rahmat...Amin

  Ya Allah, Ya Ghaffur, Ampunkanlah dos-dosa kami, Berikan keimanan dan kesihatan yang sempurna, Hati yang khusyu’,  dan Lidah yang sentiasa berzikir nama-Mu .

Ya Allah, Rezeki yang melimpah, halal lagi suci.  Ya Allah, Tenangkanlah kebimbanganku dan Berikanlah kesabaran pada kami, Kurniakanlah kami kebaikan di dunia ini, dan Kemenangan dengan mendapat ni’mat syurga dan Keselamatan dari api neraka, Serta peliharalah kami dari azab siksa kubur dan neraka. Amin Ya Rabbil Alamin.

Dia sudah datang..

Setelah 7 bulan bebas dari 'dia' , semalam dia datang kembali. Saya macam baru pertama kali menghadapi kedatangannya. Berdebar-debar menanti akibat dari kedatangan 'dia'. Alhamdulillah, so far so good. Hari ni boleh datang kerja, tak payah makan pain killler utk menghadapinya.

Risaunya cuma kerana kedatangannya sikit-sikit sahaja. Will see lah how it goes... Siapa or apa 'dia' tu? he he he My period!! I 'll be monitoring my period from now on. As advised my doctor, I need to go and see him after my second period. Should be lepas Raya lah..However the fertility treatment, would only commence after my second period if I am not selected to perform Hajj this year.

Apa-apa pun need to always ask guidance dari Allah.. He knows best.... I can only plan and He will show the path for me to take..InsyaAllah.I'll be updating and write more on my treatment from now on...

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Sakit sudah datang...

After almost 7 months on Zoladex and free of pain, the 1st emergence of the pain came last saturday nite followed by last nite. Last nite was very painfull..

Tiba-tiba sedar dari tidur kesakitan yang amat..The worst was down the thigh and lower back. Not sure berapa lama, took the spray and spray at the pain area..dalam kesakitan tu mulut berzikir kuat-kuat and pray that Allah put me back to sleep so that I can't feel the pain...

I am sad, really sad.. Walau macamana pun kena bersangka baik dengan Allah...Ya Allah tabah kan hati ini menghadapi ujian mu..